And now i blog....for the first time in..awhile? Well i inital felt that i should maybe delete this thing after a certain incident that fell through. But i thought it through and finally realized that everything i say i dont regret. Cuz if u get affended..im SORRY. cuz wat i say on this is my PURE feelings. And if they are my PURE feelings..then its the truth in a sense. Or MY sense of truth. And sometimes i'll blog when im angry,depressed, happy...WATEVER. But which ever one comes up doesnt matter to me. Cuz wat i will type will be my pure feelings AT THAT MOMENT. So if wat i say hurts anyone out there, then im sorry that i hurt unintentionally. But i will not apoligize 4 speaking my mind..weather i be mad or watever.

Well yesterday was ok. Went places with some good freinds. got to hang out with some cool people as i ran the conssesion stand. I enjoyed it.

Hmm ive been reading this book. Its called "a pebble in newcombs pond". Its about a girl who is LITERALLY going crazy. And well im almost done with the book. but im at the part where the girl has decided to kill herself. This book just started to make me think. Cuz when they talk about how she feels...its scary how i can TOTALLY relate to wat shes feeling. heh...maybe sometimes TALKING to someone how u feel isnt always a good thing to do. Maybe sometimes all u want in ur life is to have something to relate too. Im not saying thats wat i want...cuz i rather talk to my freinds ANY day of the week. But ive just made a strange connection to this book. heh lately ive been reading alot. as well as thinking as always. but THIS TIME..its different. Im not sad..just disliking and understand outcomes of things and people. Nothing will ever go my way...i accept that...so i'll be happy with wat i have..cuz thanx to some good freinds...i will start appreciating wat i have more often. nite all...heres my first blog in a long time.
posted by Philip at 9:17 PM